Insomnia catching up on me but my last thought of this year and the first of next will be of you and the joy you bring me.

We are “us” and I could not wish for anything more because “us”, and you in particular, are, for me, the be all and end all of life.

I love you beautiful one.

Re-reading your email with tears running down my cheek. You are an amazing person and I adore you. As ever time ticks by since we were last together but at least I can focus on when next I will see you – and the thought of that helps to keep me sane. I miss you.

I so much wanted to be with you today – just gently caressing your skin whilst sitting and talking, learning about you – your likes, your dislikes, your thoughts, your hopes… I long to learn all of those things (and more) about you – and in spending that time with you to show you how much you mean to me.

You are absolutely lovely in every imaginable way and I find you utterly and completely enthralling.

I love you

Wishing I was with you – holding you; caressing your skin. Dreaming of your touch, your gentleness and your kiss. Wanting to keep you safe – beautiful one.

I love you.

Somewhere in the world now it is 2017 – not too long left to go here too. I am not sure that either of us ever imagined that 2016 would end like this.

You have exploded in my head like a magical beacon of light illuminating and unmasking feelings that were there but which were never given any oxygen with which to breathe and grow. And every day now when your name lingers on my lips and it makes me catch my breath, that very same breath now enlivens those feelings encouraging them to develop and flourish.

I cannot convey to you how touched I am by your love – your note, your email – I am dumbfounded by it all.

I adore you; I am bereft without you; I am consumed by you and it is good. You are so very very good for my heart and my soul and I do not want to give you up – I so want there to be an “us” because it is a wonderful thing. I know that this may come across as being supremely selfish (and for that I am sorry) but when it comes to you I cannot be anything other than that and I will not apologise nor make excuses for being in love with you.

Every time I talk with you, your voice just enchants me – it is uplifting, hypnotic and addictive. Your love flows around me like a swirl of enchantment enriching me at every opportunity and for that I am eternally grateful.

I love you.

Missing you…

I love you

It was wonderful to talk with you this morning albeit as ever not for long enough. And then I read your email….

I don’t really know what to say. I am dumbfounded. The note you left me on thursday made me cry – this time I have had to hide away from others whilst I stifle the sobs – I wish I could just hold you in my arms.

Never in a lifetime could I write something that beautiful – you are quite extraordinary – and I am simply lost for words.

I love you.

Out walking – talking to you, telling you how much I love you and want to care for you. Probably look very strange to anyone looking at me! Even the slighted contact with you through whatever means (like earlier today) feeds my need for you.

Reliving the time we have together in my head just reinforces how lovely you are and how lucky I am that you want me. I am absolutely yours.

I love you.

Good morning my beautiful one. As always you are the last thing in my thoughts at night and again in the morning the first thing as I wake. Where is the sublime morning fragrance that I love? Would you and I were together now.

When you are not here I whisper your name to myself and it soothes me – the ache is still there but for a while it is dulled. But you are always in my thoughts and underneath the ache is the overwhelming love that I feel for you – and I do not want to let that go for it is the most special feeling ever.

I love you.