I cannot bear to sit on my hands any longer whilst feeling as I do – and for now, whilst I have the misfortune of being unable to talk to you to tell you how I feel this message to myself will have to suffice. I am uncertain how articulate I can be like this today but I can but try.

My heart is overwhelmed by you; you consume my every thought and disrupt me so profoundly yet quieten the noise in my head like never before – I feel such peace with you. When I am with you the world just stops, yet of course time marches on and when, all too soon, we have to part I feel torn apart, broken and bereft. The sound of your voice on the phone, the sound of your footsteps on the stairs – these and more cascade waves of happiness through me. Your smile simply dissolves me.

I need you to be my ‘friend’ – I need you to feel wanted, cared for and adored. I need you to know that I am completely captivated by you.

I love you beautiful one.