Awake much of the night wishing I was with you. Wanting to hold you – to make things right. Replaying your voice over and over in my head, the softness of your skin, the beauty of your smile, the gentleness of your touch… – and all of the many delightful things that make you, you.

I love you.

When I am asleep, you are there; when awake, in everything I think and do, you are there – you are always in my thoughts and it feels wonderful – so very very good.

Don’t be sad – we will have our time.

Please please teach me – help me to know you in every way, better and more deeply every day, so that I can be the very best friend I can be for you, lovely one.

I love you.

The gentle lilt of one of your “hello”s today just enchants me – so utterly beguiling and captivating that that single word sustains me in my loneliness for days. To say “I have missed you” is just so weak and inadequate but with words it is perhaps the best I can do for now. How I long to see you so that I can show you how I feel.

But then my heart breaks when I hear the sadness in your voice – I am beside myself with how inept and ineffectual I feel. Again words just fail me. If only I could scoop you up in my arms to care for you and keep you safe, I would – I wish I was there for you.

You are so very beautiful in every way – I love you.

The light at the end of the tunnel (until I see you again) draws nearer and I feel better this morning knowing that you are soon to be within reach. You lift me up in so many ways and I so want to do the same for you – to be the person who cares for you and loves you, helping you to see how astonishingly special you truly are.

I love you beautiful one.

Another day almost gone – ever closer to you again. Little things make my heart skip – your steps on the stairs, an email in my inbox. You are truly lovely in every way, delightful and mesmerising. I am so very lucky to have you love me – though I know not why….

I love you.

No matter how far I walk the loneliness I feel without you persists – I whisper your name and it soothes me. I close my eyes – I kiss your neck; I hear your gasp as I caress your gentle curves; I feel the warmth of your body against mine. You are exquisite and I adore you. I could spend forever exploring your beauty.

You have turned my world upside down – the ‘order’ in my head has simply melted away, dissolved by your very essence. Simultaneously chaotic and peaceful, I am completely captivated by you and it is the most amazing feeling ever.

I love you.

Going for a walk – thinking of you. A physical visceral ache confounds me now – it is though but a nothing thing when compared with the truly unbridled happiness that you bring me – you are just so wonderfully lovely.

I love you.

Looking forward to seeing you later this week – impatiently willing time by. Just wanting to spend time together in our ‘us’ space.

I am driven by a near insatiable urge to tell you how I feel – these thoughts and messages here help me in part but only for a while. So enthralled am I by you that I long to hear your voice – a single “hello” just enchants my soul in a way I never imagined possible.

I love you.