Having upset “everyone” today, you were worrying about upsetting me by the end of the day – but actually I think it was me who messed up. The drive I feel to be close to you is profound – but only because the love that drives it is equally profound. I have never experienced such strengths of emotion before and I do not want to give them or you up.

So I am sorry – not for being in love with you or for feeling such extraordinary feelings of closeness when intimate with you – but for not being as careful as I should be with your heart. I do try – and just need to try harder – and promise that I will do so.

I need you to be with me in “us” – I need to look after “us”, and I need to ensure that every minute of the day, you know that I love you. This string of (rambling!) messages helps we with that – and I hope that it helps you too.

I will miss you terribly over the weekend and will count down the time until monday morning.

I love you my truly very beautiful one x.