Hello my darling beautiful one x. I miss you so much – there is that visceral ache that tries to wear me down – but then I find somewhere quiet and close my eyes, talk to you, and there you are with me and I am whole again.

You complete my soul and you mend my heart – for so long I have hidden my heart away, I have been scared to let it go. And it has always been very much easier for me to hide behind my job and the persona that goes with that, and what people expect me to be (in and out of work) – so I have done just that. But somehow, you have come out of almost nowhere (with that dress!), and disrupted me so much that all I want to do is to give my heart to you. My head is awash with you in everything I do, and so, you have all of me.

The emotions that I feel for you are all encompassing – I am surrounded by and engulfed by your beauty and your love. I want to be yours – I can’t help it, I can’t control it – it feels wonderful and I absolutely do not want to let it (or you) go. I don’t want to, or mean to, stress your heart but I don’t know how to be honest with you and then hide this from you – so please let me beg forgiveness from you right now for this – I am sorry that I let you down here.

You are an extraordinary and a very beautiful (in every sense of the word) person.

I love you with all my heart x.