My beautiful one – I hope that you are ok. Looking for some meetings here and there – not much to find at the moment but will look again later. I am trying to patient but time does pass slowly and I really would like some time with you where it is just us – to help us be “us”. I want to be just you and I – just as ourselves – without any interference from work in any way – I want the peace and contentment of just being with you for hours and hours without worrying about the time ticking away.

Was out for a walk – had a bright idea about the maths thing (was looking at the branches on some trees and it dawned on me re a faster way of sorting data) – so am part way through a new algorithm that I want to test on some historical data, and will do some of that later. I have changed the first bit already and that bit is now about 150% / 160% quicker and more accurate – so am hopeful, it should go a lot faster. Of course I still blame you for making me do this!

Far far more important though, I really need to hold you, kiss you and tell you how much I miss you. I hear your voice when I close my eyes and it feels very good indeed.

I love you.

As time goes by, your confidence in me and how I feel about you, will I hope grow. I want to be able to show you with time, how enriched I am by having you in my life – it is very important to me that you come to know and understand what a very special person you really are.

I love you.

Adorable one – thank you so much for letting me call. Your voice, your laugh – they lift my soul – there is so much gentleness in your voice. I feel better for having spoken with you, however briefly – I miss you terribly.

I don’t want to, nor can I / could I, go away from you – no matter what anyone asks. I can’t help it but you are now so important to me that I have to think about you and “us” in every decision I make – and I am happy that that is so. How you make me feel is unique, extraordinary and one of those once-in-a-lifetime things. For as long as I can remember, no one / nothing has brought the calmness to my thoughts that you have. And I would be completely insane to ignore all of that. The developing, growing “us” is a very good thing indeed – and as you said in the week, the foundation is a very strong one.

I am completely enchanted by your gentleness and your beauty – you are truly lovely to me.

I love you.

Back from a walk – more talking to you – I suspect that you are fed up of me telling you the same things over and over again but it helps me. Plus today I am a bit happier because only 1 day left until I see you again.

I keep thinking about the all the really kind things that you do for me – you are very generous towards me and it is very touching. I want to be that same person for you helping you and caring for you whenever I can.

I love you.

Early morning – dreaming about you – wanting to be cuddled up with you together under a blanket gently kissing your soft skin. Just holding you in my arms and falling asleep – nothing would be more perfect.

I love you.

Can’t sleep – thinking about you all of the time. I tried listening about the history of the Magna Carta – but got bored of that. Tried listening about Zeno’s paradox – the tortoise and Achilles – but got bored of that too. Nothing really diverts me from you – but it wastes some time at least…..

I love you.

I want to be your very best friend my beautiful one. You are already mine. I want to be the person who loves you both emotionally and physically – and I want you to be the same for me too.

I adore you.

I love you.

Hi lovely one, I hope that you are ok. I miss you – been for another walk, listened to a radio podcast about the Battle of Thermopylae and the Spartans. Then a bit on the theory of infinity. Always makes me think these things – the variety in mankind is quite extraordinary. My head is full of stuff – too much stuff really – things I should be trying to do to make me better than I am now. Yet I rarely get there – and that can be painful at times. That’s partly why I don’t sleep, I have a constant need to do more, and that’s where my feeling of being fundamentally lazy starts – I should be more than I am.

But… that’s where you come along – because you soothe that pain and show me a very very different path – a path that is illuminated by the radiance of your smile and the tenderness of your love. You make me stop and think about something real for a change i.e. you – you may not even realise that you do – but I look at you and I am just breathless, completely dumbfounded by your beauty and totally captivated. You just dissolve me into a pool of love and affection and all I want to do is to look after you – everything else somehow becomes irrelevant. And that’s why I feel the peace that you bring – you calm all of the noise – and I feel so much better because of it.

For me, you are the best thing ever – I don’t want to sound selfish, but it is very hard to pretend anything other than you are the most magical person and I am nothing but enriched by your presence in my life. And I do not want to let go – and that’s the other reason why I don’t sleep! (which is truly just fine with me, beautiful one)

I love you.

(PS just realised that this is my 100th post – just goes to show how motivated you can be once you have a new hobby – remember that is your job to explain this to the others…!)