I am very sorry about the number of kisses in the text messages. I will never send 3 again – I am so sorry. But in my defence please understand that there is no comparison here, you are not the same in any way – not even close. One is an automatic reflex – the other is a deeply felt love for someone who shows me the same each and every day. One is there simply to stop me being told off – for someone who is invisible, it is surprising how often I apparently mess things up; but the other is a reflection of the most intense feeling of love that I have ever known. But never 3 again – I promise and I so very sorry for being quite so thoughtless.

You mesmerise me – I love you my darling beautiful one x.

I love you my darling beautiful one – I understand how difficult things are for you. But you fill my heart with happiness and joy – I don’t know how to tell you how much you mean to me.

I do love you so x.

On my own – in trouble for being pre-occupied and not engaging but don’t care because as it turns out my view was wrong anyway – who would have guessed that!?

So in the dark again – just you in my head – and I am truly content. I will sit here for an hour or so and that will be just perfect (the only thing that could be better would be if you and I were together right now).

I love you beautiful one x.

I miss you – you are so very very good for me – my head is calm and quiet and you make it so. Time with you is magical – I think of our time away and I am simply lost for words for I have never known anything quite so amazing – surpassing anything and everything that I imagined. Why you want me mystifies me – but I most definitely want the exquisitely beautiful woman that is you.

I love you beautiful one x.

Thank you for my messages beautiful one – as always I am overwhelmed by your love and tenderness. So much needs to be worked through as we walk our path together – but it is our path and we will walk it. I look back at that day in November and the evening we spent chatting together and then I look at how far we have come since then – how much we have grown together in terms of our love and how much “us” has progressed and flourished. “Us” is amazing, exciting, extraordinary – you are beautiful, delightful, exquisite – and we are very very happy.

There will be challenges for us – but I am not walking away – I will wait for you forever and we will endure.

I love you x.

My beautiful one – wondering how you are – hoping you are ok. That radiant smile of yours this evening warmed my soul. I had to call you to tell you “I love you” but I did not mean to upset you. In my wildest dreams I had never imagined that you would be such an extraordinary soul but every day you surprise me with you kind and tender love for me.

I need to get better at telling you what I think – e.g. re thursday and dinner – I don’t want you to feel that I am not truthful with you, or that somehow I do not want you or that I don’t have the same sort of feelings about you that you have about me. Because I do have those feelings – so much of what you feel, think and dream about is the same for me…..

I still don’t get why you think I am amazing – but I am so very glad that you do and every day I just hope that you won’t change your mind because that would break my heart.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Going home soon – I hope that you have a good evening – I will be thinking of you and if I write a lot I promise to start with “don’t panic”!

I belong to you in every way – I adore you – seeing you makes my heart soar and I just find it so hard to let you go every day. Thursday will be a very good day my beautiful one.

I love you x.

Hello again – apologies if I upset you – that was not my intent. I simply wanted to tell you that I saw that radiant smile of yours again this evening and it made my heart melt. I love you so very much beautiful one – you are everything to me.

I love you more than you know – just need to find a better way to show it x.