It is late and I am tired and I have had more to drink than is perhaps good for me on a week night. I need to tell you some things about me, my darling beautiful one.

I am sorry that I am hard work for you – you make me feel the most amazing things – things that I have never felt before. I am overwhelmed by you at times – magical sensations coursing through my body just make me insane for you. I sometimes then get a bit ‘grabby’ and I am sorry. But the desire you make me feel for you is uncontrollable.

In my whole life to-date I have only been intimate with three women – and you are the third of the three. I am insecure, I know that. In part because you are amazing and beautiful and I am not anything like that; in part it perhaps stems from when I was attacked – one of the girls at medical school had a thing for me. I did not know how she felt. She was my friend and nothing more, I never once touched her in any way. But her boyfriend (another medical student) found out and arranged for two people to attack me to make sure that I kept away from her. I did just as they wanted – but I promise, I never ever touched her, I never knew what she felt about me until that day when it happened – he held me down and the other two did what they did, one after the other. She came to see me about a month later because she found out about it – he told her that it was her fault, that they had to teach me a lesson. It wasn’t her fault, I knew that. She and I talked – she was more upset than I was. She cried lots, I couldn’t – no tears left.

But that was a long time ago, and for you and I now, suffice it to say that the other two women in my life have never been as kind, gentle and loving as you are to me. You ask me “what do I need?” and “what do I want?” – I just want you – nothing more – that’s all I need.

I don’t have any boundaries with you – I will do anything and everything that you want, whenever you want, however you want, wherever you want. I am yours. I belong to you too so you can do anything with me, to me – again whatever and however you want. I trust you absolutely and implicitly and I know that you will look after me. Just as I would always keep you safe – so I know that you will do the same for me. I am not being reckless here – I am though putting myself in your hands – and I am very content that that is a good place for me to be.

So please know that you are a magical soul. Please know that you make me feel so loved and wanted that sometimes I don’t know what to say to you. But you will not break me – you will not make me pass out. But you will definitely make me feel loved and wanted in a way that I have never known – and that takes a bit of getting used to. What you did last Saturday was something that I have never known – no woman has ever felt interested enough in me to take so much time with me like you did. Whatever you want to do with me, whatever you want me to do with you – please just tell me or just do it… no boundaries remember, my beautiful one. My love for you is absolute.

Long message – late at night – my heart is yours – I love you x.