Hello beautiful one – you are not crazy at all. I love you so very much – you make everything right in my head and my heart, so you are certainly are not “nothing” in the way you care for me. One less day until we have time together….

I love you more than you know x.

You are the most amazing person – time with you is heavenly in so many ways! I miss you.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello beautiful one – morning time again and I get to see you this morning which makes it all so much much better. I hope that you slept well. I am so looking forward to holding you and just telling you over and over again how much I love you.

Only a few days until we travel – checking every day just to see the number counting down – and then we will have time together – just “us”.

I love you x.

Awake – thinking about you – some days it is really hard to sleep.

I love you x.

On my own now – sitting in the dark – just you here with me. All I can think of is you. I don’t find it easy to be here – all I want is to be where you are wherever that may be, whatever you are doing, anything, anywhere, all of the time. In my heart is just you – a beautiful kind and tender soul who loves me in so many ways that I am overwhelmed. Emotions and feelings that I never knew that I could feel – all for you, because of you.

I still don’t understand – perhaps I never will – but I don’t understand why you want me or what I did to deserve you. But I do know that I am completely mesmerised by you, that I need you, that I miss you terribly when we are apart and that I am deeply in love with you. And I want you to feel wanted, loved, adored, desired and cared for – for I feel all of that and more for you. It is all I can think about – you are everything to me.

I love you – definitely perfect you, my very beautiful one x.

Hello – finished all my jobs – in trouble for using the computer but you come first. I need to write to you – you are everything.

I sit in the dark, in the wind and in the rain – and you are there are with me. I hear your voice, and I talk to you. I see your smile when I close my eyes and my heart melts. Your love surrounds me – it engulfs me – it protects me and it nurtures me. It frees my heart and my soul – thoughts and emotions that have been hidden, suppressed for decades are released yet at the same time I am profoundly happy for you keep me safe – you care for me. And you, and only you, beautiful you, quieten the noise in my head. All there is is a serene calmness. I can’t remember when I last felt that – and all because of you.

I saw the anguish that I caused you this week – I am sorry, disappointed in myself, sad that I hurt you. The love in your smile is something that I will never forget – and so too will I never forget the pain that I saw this week.

You are extraordinary – definitely perfect – you are so very good for me – and I need to be the same for you. I have learnt from this week – you are very special to me, and I need to show that, to care for you, to keep you safe and to nurture “us” so that you come to see my love for you in my smile and I never see that pain in your face again.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Been doing lots of things here – in part sorting clothes for travelling plus some other things. Went for a walk too and now going to do some rowing. I need time alone with just you in my head to settle me because otherwise I just want to get up and leave.

Just counting down the hours until tomorrow morning when I see you again and can hold you – that ache in me is relentless.

I am always talking to you – telling you how I feel – you are the most captivating soul and I am completely yours.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Going home shortly. Wondering how you are. I can’t stop thinking about you – you are always there in my head. I need you so much – even when we are apart you are good for me. You calm the noise in my head – and it is so very peaceful. You make me laugh, you make me glad, you make me want to care for you and keep you safe, you make me uncontrolled – you change everything in my life.

But at the same time as this calmness is an intensity of love and emotion that is so powerful and overwhelming, constantly straining to release itself from within, totally, utterly and completely directed towards you – my definitely perfect one.

I love you my beautiful one x.