Thank you so very much for letting me call – I cannot explain the excitement exploding within me when I read your email. Today is a hard day – yesterday was worse – but last week was the happiness time ever. And over time there will be more and more of the happy times and they will always always outweigh the sad days.

You are the light that illuminates my way in life and your radiant smile just warms me to my very core. Never before have I ever experienced such all-encompassing and overwhelming love – you, my darling beautiful one, are simply exquisite. I am so very lucky indeed to have you in my life – “us” is truly amazing.

I love you so very much x.

Back now – a bit cold. You are such a delight to me and I adore you. I miss you so very much though and the wonderful memories from last week are all that sustain me. So still counting down hours…..

I love you my beautiful one x.

A bit more work to do then going for another walk. Need the fresh air. Thinking again of that radiant smile of yours across the room at dinner on tuesday evening – my heart melts and I just want to hold you close to me. You are everything.

I love you beautiful one x.

Sat here – working – fed up to the extreme – missing you so very much indeed – I love you x.

Hello – shorter walk today as not feeling so well but nice fresh air and time to sit in the quiet with only you in my head and my heart. Some work to do this morning – wishing that I could talk with you for real but I know that I can’t so I will just talk to you in my head and in these messages instead.

Thank you so much for wanting me – I still don’t understand it all – but the happiness that I have felt in the last few months and especially the last week is more than I have ever known. You are very special indeed my beautiful one.

I love you x.

Going out for a walk shortly – more fresh air therapy. No lesson today, can’t bear anything in my head except for you – you are the only thing that brings me peace.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Not feeling that well – blocked nose etc. Can’t sleep for multiple reasons – lying here with thoughts of you in my head – and so very much in love x.

Tired, and not feeling so well today. Going to bed soon to listen to some history podcasts – exiled to the spare room tonight because of my coughing and sneezing (too disruptive apparently) but that is actually ok as I am finding it very hard when the person next to me is not you. Probably won’t listen to many podcasts though as I suspect that I will just lie there staring at the ceiling thinking of you. But that is just what I want – for you are definitely perfect. And one day again the person next to me will be you and then that will be absolutely definitely perfect….

Sweet dreams my darling – I love you my beautiful one x.