Thinking about you – thinking about “us”. I do love you – and that is why I need you. I need to be able to show you how much I care for you. It is never a chore, you are never hard work, you are not a shrew – what you are is the love of my life. I need you or otherwise no one now – because I need to stop being not quite good enough.

For a long time after I was raped, I felt ashamed. It took a long time to ease that pain. This is a different pain but a pain nevertheless. That feeling of never being right whatever you do, however hard you try is corrosive – it slowly eats away at you and it has done so to me. But I can no longer bear this – it simply is not fair.

I want you – I need you – “us” is amazing – you are everything.

I love you – the love of my life, the woman of whom I dream and who has my heart x.