Hi – took a deep breath and said that I prefer sleeping in the spare room. Hasn’t gone down well – but it is the right thing for me and it is the right thing for “us”. And anyway what is the point of complaining when for the last few days I have been sent there anyway. But I have to remove myself for “us” and so I have.

All I think about is you – I need the person lying next to me to be you – or otherwise no one. You are everything to me and in my head I need to protect that – I have messed up once before but never again.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.