Today has been an interesting day – most important of all is you. After yesterday, the most loving experience with the most beautiful woman – I am really and truly in awe of you, your absolute femininity, your gentle curves and more. I have never felt quite so close and “at one” with anyone – you take my breath away. So today I have been walking on air, my soul uplifted by the love of my life. So I decided to sit and write to you – and I am so very pleased that you understood what I was trying to tell you.

To me you are everything – you are now the air that I breathe and the sunshine on my face – and you and I need to walk together in that sunshine.

I did my shopping bit today – it is amazing how quickly you can spend £2000 without trying – and of course, it would be foolhardy of me to point out that we already have 6 garden chairs with cushions that no one ever sits on other than me, so clearly we need even more chairs for people not to sit on…. but I said nothing – you told me “smile, pay and carry stuff home” – so I did. And I am truly fine – because I suddenly realised that I actually don’t care anymore.

And then wife #1 – well, she called again – and we were right and we were wrong. She told me that she is still in love with me (you were right) and that of all the people she has ever known my heart was the kindest that she has ever known. And that is what she wanted to tell me. But she is done now and she is not going to turn up (we were wrong) because it turns out that she is in hospital in London dying from cancer of the cervix which she blames herself for because, so she tells me, whilst she and I were married she slept with at least six men other than me – I only knew of two. I loved her once – I proposed after 156 days with a bouquet of 156 roses, one for each day – but that was a long time ago, over 25 years ago. We talked for a while – we finished the call – I will not hear from her again. She and I are done now.

And then once again there is you – the woman who loved me for two years and who kept it hidden. That one single fact, that thought, it breaks my heart – how you managed and tolerated that pain I will never know. It was – it is an extraordinary thing that you did. So you are an amazing person, and you are the love of my life. And my heart yearns for you – and why? Because in my whole life, I have never known anyone who comes even close to you – you are the epitome of kindness and tenderness.

And today, every day, day after day I am eternally grateful that you want me – I am in love with a very beautiful soul and the most fantastic thing of all is that somehow I have managed to convince her that loving me is a good thing for her. Every morning I pinch myself to check that it is real and so far so good…..

I love you my darling beautiful one x.