I am very sorry if I have somehow made you feel as if you have done something wrong. If I have made you feel that you have personally hurt me then that was not my intent at all and I am very sorry.

You have never – not once – done anything to hurt me – you have only ever been the kindest and most loving soul. What has caused me pain – a deep visceral loss – is the fact of us being apart. Far worse than I imagined – but it has ripped into me, through me – making me feel bereft.

But this is just because I love you so very much – so how can I complain? I cannot be sad because you are the love of my life. I cannot be sad because your smile melts my heart instantly – I cannot be sad because the physical and emotional joy of being intimate with you is the most heavenly emotion I have ever known.

I do though miss you and I will do so until the moment you next walk into my office in just over a week’s time. I will also think about you constantly – literally so – and that is a very good thing. You bring me a happiness and a contentment that is profound – my love for you grows daily running through me completely – whenever we are apart I will feel a sadness, but I would never ever wish you to go away. I want you absolutely – I cannot be without you – for whatever pain I feel whilst apart is dwarfed by the joy of loving you.

I love you my darling – you make me complete by making “us” with me – and I want that to be so forever more x.