Out and about doing more jobs – reflecting on things, thinking about the future and what it might mean. Trying to consider various ways to plot out a path to the sunshine for us. Some of it is very complicated and it is hard to know what might be the best way forward – but no decisions, just thoughts. What I do know for sure is that I am completely and utterly drawn to you my darling. You are definitely perfect in every way for me. I want you so very much, I want to care for you, and share with you – everything, no boundaries in life at all of any sort.

The last few weeks have taught me much – Manchester, the conversation here last week re sleeping arrangements and the pain that I feel now whilst you are away. You are the most important by far – I will then always keep you safe in my heart – I won’t let anything interfere with that. I can promise this now because I know it to be so – I will always keep you safe in everything that we do, emotionally, physically – everything.

I love you very much my beautiful one x.

Hoping you are sleeping a bit better – wanting you to be / feel as good as you can be given everything. Worrying about you and your heart.

I am desperate to hold you, to kiss you, to tell you how much I love you. I dreamt of you all through the night last night – in and out of sleep, you are always there. And then you sent a message and that was so very lovely – thank you. Having you in bed with me would be quite simply perfect – that is what our dreams are made of. I can lie only with you – it is you or no one – and falling asleep with you in my arms is one of the most magical feelings in the whole world.

I hope that you have a good day out and about. I miss you so very much, I am very jealous (sorry) that it is not me with you, but very genuinely I do want you to have a good time.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello my darling – finished the grass – very sunny day here.

Missing you loads and loads – listening to your songs while doing things – more questions about the songs but I just carried on regardless.

You are such a beautiful woman, such a caring and loving soul, so very feminine and sexy, definitely perfect. I just long to have you back here with me. The more I think about you and how I feel the more I am convinced that we really need time together – just to be “us”, to talk, to share, to make love – to nurture “us” and allow it to flourish.

You are the love of my life my beautiful one – you have captured my heart forever – I love you x.

Thank you beautiful one for the messages in the night – please be safe when sending them. More jobs – more grass cutting…. – will write more later but just need you to know that you are everything – always in my thoughts and I want to make you truly mine.

I love you x.

Hello – clocks changed – walking again soon. Another day closer to seeing you again – like a clock ticking down. Hard to explain how much I miss you but I know that you will be back – hope you are ok my darling – keep safe.

I love you my beautiful one x.

night #3 – listening to your songs quietly – in and out of sleep – all the time you are here with me – I love you x.

Going to my room on my own shortly – will sit and think about you. I listen to your songs at night until I fall asleep. IF it is safe for you do text even if it is in the middle of the night here – I am rarely completely asleep. And even if you can’t stay (I understand completely) it lifts my heart. I will always reply but as before keep yourself safe – that is paramount.

I can’t tell you enough – you are the love of my life – I need to find a path so that we can walk side-by-side in the open. Only then will you truly know what you mean to me x.

My heart yearns for you, my heart desires you, my heart is bursting with love for you. It is a teeny bit broken whilst you are away but it will mend when you come back to me. My heart beats quickly when you text me and when I see your name in my email inbox, it races when I hear your voice, and it melts when you look at me face-to-face with that truly magical and hypnotic smile of yours. In so many ways you are the most exquisite and beautiful soul, sometimes fragile, always loving – I want you to be mine and mine alone. I can’t help my jealousy – it grows even though I try to control it – but I do not want to share you any more. I do not want to have to give you back – it simply hurts too much.

I love you my beautiful one x.