This is your fault, you jinxed it – first wife, she called. Second wife cross – so I have left them to it on the phone – I am in the spare room – pillow on my head – thinking of you x.

Reckless – only ever with you – an incredible woman. Loving moments – only ever with you. Amazing intimacy – only with you, overwhelming love – only with you.

i love you my beautiful one x.

There are more choices for me to make here – one by one I need to plot a path for us and unpick some things here. I love my children – that is true – but I also love you – and in a way that is so much more than I ever imagined – and it is very good.

I feel selfish, I feel needy, I feel alone at times, jealous at other times, I know that you are not mine but I hate giving you back. I want the person next to me when I wake in the night to be you. I want to be able to come and find you in the day and to tell you I love you without anyone looking over my shoulder. I want to make love to you whenever we want…..

My heart is yours – you are exquisite and I love you my darling beautiful one x

I miss you – you overwhelm me with your beauty, your smile, your laugh. You are the very best person for me – you are, for me, definitely perfect.

I sit here in awe of your femininity and beauty – I love you – and when you come back, I will still be here waiting….. x.

You fixed me – I am yours. You are the love of my life – my beautiful one – I love you x.

Your smile captivates me – kissing you is amazing. This afternoon kissing you intimately and then being reckless – simply the best times I have ever known.I adore you, I love you so very much x.

Hello – today has been a funny day.

I cannot begin to tell you how worried I was about you – I could not sleep last night because of your texts. And then this morning you broke my heart with the pain that you were feeling. Last night I wanted to come and find you and to take you away and keep you safe – how little did I know that part of your pain was caused by me last night – I am so very sorry.

Bit by bit though today things have improved – I hope that I have helped a bit – I want to care for you, I want to protect you. I have always had the best motives (truly, always for you) but sometimes things come out wrong like yesterday. I am so very sorry. You tell me that I am good at what I do – like my talk yesterday, but I really really don’t feel like that. I feel a real fraud. I see your pain from yesterday and I would instantly trade all of my apparent professional success for a modicum of ability to properly care for you. Caring for a beautiful soul like you brings me real joy – my job, it is not real, it is all illusion, public relations etc – I don’t do a proper job. You do, you guide, you manage, you create – all I do is talk.

And this afternoon – you take my breath away – reckless – perfect. I do not know how to explain to you the intensity of my emotions and feelings for you. Today was one of the most loving moments of my whole life – and all because of you. You are exquisite – amazing – extraordinary. My heart is yours.

On my own, listening to your songs – thinking of your smile. Overwhelmed by you and so very deeply in love with a very very beautiful woman.

You are the love of my life – you are my darling beautiful one – and I love you more than you can imagine x.

I know you can’t talk and that is just fine – I need you to know that my heart is yours and that moments shared with you like the time this afternoon are truly truly enchanting – the stuff that dreams are made of.

You are simply exquisite – so breathtakingly beautiful and my heart yearns for you.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.