I am very sorry that you have been having such a hard time recently – and I am truly truly sorry for those times when it has been me making you anguish. It is though so very good to hear you laugh and to hear you talking of the magical moments we have shared.

I am not leaving – you have nothing to apologise to me for – you are everything to me. As I said right at the beginning I need to learn about you so that I can be the very best person for you. In some ways I am better than before but by no means what I would hope and want to be for you. But trying…

I love you my beautiful one x.

You are looking a bit brighter – sometimes you are quite fragile in so many ways. I just want to keep you safe.

I love you my beautiful one x.

You are the love of my life – I am sorry if I did not care for you enough yesterday – it came out wrong but the motives were good – truly.

I love you my beautiful one x.

You look a little subdued today – it makes me sad – I love you and I worry…. x

Still not sleeping – so up early, wanting you – looking forward to time with you today – I love you more than I can describe x.

Can’t sleep – thinking of you – your gentle curves – exquisite x

My heart is yours, my head is yours, and my body is yours. I adore you – I hope that you are ok tonight my beautiful one.

I love you x.

Home now, had a bit to eat. OK here – a bit frosty but nothing in the bin. On my own again, tired – lots of things in my head today but almost all work, truly. Lying here in the spare room, thinking of you. Wanting to be lying with you – intertwined, feeling your breath on my cheek, falling asleep with you. Absolutely, totally and utterly in love with you – the most beautiful and feminine woman I have ever known.

Thank you for being quite so lovely, thank you for wanting me, thank you for being my beautiful one.

I love you, the love of my life x.