Every day I see you and that is a good day – when I don’t, then it is not a bad day because I still have you in my heart and in my thoughts and dreams, but it is a less good day. And the days when we have time alone unwatched and entwined are perfect days. These are the ones I long for.

I love you my beautiful one x.

You were so very lovely this morning in the meeting – radiantly beautiful again. You mesmerise me.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hi – radiantly beautiful sat there across the table – you take my breath away. I am so in love with you x.

Hello lovely one – looking forward to seeing you this morning – seeing your smile across the table!

I love you my beautiful one x.

Dreaming of you – wanting to lie intertwined together. I love you x.

Hello.

I don’t want you to think that my life is miserable because it isn’t – so I am just fine. So many things here are just fine too. The house is fine, the children are fine, my Dad is fine. But at the same time, you describe it best, I am invisible. For at least 10 years now, my view on things has somehow been invalid – so many times in the early years I complained about simply wanting an equal footing – to be treated equitably. And then as with so many things after a while you just stop complaining. If I do as I am asked then usually that is fine – and I do try to do that. But I am not psychic and it is hard to second guess someone.

There are so many things that I could write about but as I sit here thinking about them, actually I can’t be bothered because actually I don’t care any more – I used to, but no more – perhaps that is the issue – who knows? What I do know is that you are the love of my life…..

I am very lucky to have you – I love you x.

Sitting on my own now – happy with you in my head – will go and sit in the spare room shortly. Sometimes I wonder about life – not being able to do much right. Did everything that was asked of me this evening but somehow not right. But then at work everyone says “you do a good job” – how can two part of one life be so disparate? One never right – the other never wrong.

Listening to your songs – listening to some of my songs that make me think of you too. You are in my head and in my heart – exploring “us” with you – the most magical time I could ever imagine.

I love you my beautiful one x.

My heart yearns for you – your love comes through in every thing that you do and say. Today you were the epitome of beauty – you looked absolutely radiant. I was completely speechless this morning when I first saw you – tongue-tied and dumbfounded. And then sitting with you this afternoon – peaceful and blissful. How I miss you….

You are everything – I love you unconditionally and absolutely x.