Hello beautiful one – still wading through paperwork – like treacle….

Timeout though to tell you how wonderful you are and how much you mean to me. Speaking to you this morning was so heavenly – just to share time with you is all I want. I know that you are tearful at times and I understand why. Please do not feel the need to apologise to me for this – much of this is so complicated. You are not alone with these feelings – albeit perhaps manifest in slightly different ways for the two of us.

But for me you are definitely perfect, pure delight and so very captivating and mesmerising. I miss you very much and am just counting down hours until tomorrow.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – thinking of you – so desperately just want to call you back and tell you how very much I love you. Of course I would much rather come and find you, and scoop you up into my arms where I could hold you close and keep you safe with me.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – I never expected to have quite so much time to talk with you today and it was just heavenly. You are so kind and tender and loving – I need you to understand how much you mean to me and how very good you are for me. Everything you do is aimed at caring for me – and that makes you a very special person indeed. I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful person in my life.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Hello beautiful one – a quick note because I don’t want you to forget how I feel – I love you x.

Hello beautiful one – hope you slept well. Out soon for a walk in the rain – peaceful time to thing about you and to talk with you. I need to explain how much I love you so that you understand properly.

I love you beautiful one x.

Hello – thinking of you, wishing I could hold you in my arms. I love you x.

Home – can send you a proper message as I have 10 mins to myself now.

Please do not worry about me – I am ok and the reason I am ok is because I know that you love me and I also know that I love you – and that in my head is definitely perfect. You are the most wonderful soul I have ever known – it is pure and total delight for me to be able to look after you in so many ways. But that then also explains the pain I feel when I mess things up. As you said if you did not love me it would not hurt. So it is for me – the sadness yesterday was only because I was so disappointed in myself.

I would love to speak with you tomorrow but not because I need you to apologise to me – you have not done anything wrong. What I need is to hear the voice which mesmerises me and to tell its owner that she is the most beautiful and wonderful woman I have ever known.

We do need to chat at some point – but without any pressure or any pre-conceived ideas. But I need you to know that the concept that I might walk away from you falls into your category of “we are NOT going to do that!” – so please do not fret – I am not going anywhere unless you send me there, and for as long as you want me I will be there for you.

I would love to talk with you tomorrow but only if it is safe for you – please do not get yourself into trouble for me. “Us” will endure come what may.

I love you beautiful one x.

Hello – more diet coke – I miss you my beautiful one. All I can think of is what a wonderful person you are and how magical it is to spend time with you. You are just exquisite – I love you x.