night #5 – very worried about you after last night my darling – please be safe – I love you x.

Falling in and out of sleep – missing you, dreaming of you, longing to hold you. Remembering our time together when travelling – the most magical nights together – counting down the days until the next heavenly moments with you.

I love you – you are everything x.

Been doing some work – just finished, two phone calls from work too (on-call). Going to sit on my own with your songs and lie there thinking of you. Want to lie under a blanket intertwined with you, making love, then falling asleep together. You brighten my day, you lift my soul, you melt my heart – I love you my beautiful one x.

Long day today – plus really worried about you. Wave after wave of helplessness reading your messages through the night until I left for work. Glad that you then slept but your more recent conversation cannot have been easy at all. I just hope that you are ok. Whatever has or has not been said such things are always painful and stressful. So please take care of yourself – be safe for me.

I am waiting here for you – counting down the hours – dreaming of you. Still talking to you, still listening to your songs, always with you in my heart.

I love you beautiful one x.

Home now – ok here – thinking about you and wondering how you are. It must have been a difficult day for you so far so I hope that you are ok. I love you more than I can explain – I want you to feel loved and wanted because I do want you so. I want to be the one who falls asleep with you at night and the one who wakes with you in the morning. I want to be the one who shares everything with you – no boundaries my darling.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Had to write again – just totally distracted by you in every way, every minute, every hour, every day. You monopolise me and it is very good indeed. I am overwhelmed by you – always. Both emotionally and physically, the love that you show me constantly reinforces the fact that you are the most amazing woman – beautiful and enchanting. Absolutely exquisite – so very special and precious to me.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Hello beautiful one – in between calls now and then going home about 6.30 or so. Things there are not happy but I am personally ok. Nothing specific just general frostiness, and as always it is all apparently my fault. And truly I am ok because actually the most important focus for me by far is you. I cannot think of anything other than you – not that I am trying to – but you do just consume my every thought.

Whatever I am feeling here is dwarfed by your anguish – and you are alone and far away which compounds things massively. I want time with you; I need time with you. I need to see your face and your smile – to hold you close, to caress your back. And then we need time alone to explore and love each other.

The more time I spend away from you – the more I realise what you mean to me. I can’t explain everything at all but I do know that you have captured my heart completely and that you are very special indeed – a delightful and very beautiful woman with whom I want to share without any boundaries.

I love you beautiful one x.

Off to do a proper job, then calls with the US and others. I love you my beautiful one and I am missing you very badly indeed x.