I am being smothered with kindness here and it is very uncomfortable – years of normal behaviour have been overturned apparently in an afternoon it would seem. But I know that it is not real.

All I think of is you – you consume my thoughts, my heart – you make me love you with your gentleness and tenderness. You enrich my life in so many ways, loving you is magical and heavenly and is more than I could ever have imagined. You make me complete.

I love you my darling – you are everything to me – I just long for time with you because that is when I feel pure happiness, contentment and desire with and for you – the love of my life x.

Thinking of you – have been out for a walk. I sat on the bench and closed my eyes and thought of you. I could hear you voice – the gentle “thank you” and your laugh – and it made me smile. I wonder how you are – I hope that you are happy even though we are apart. I can’t wait until Tuesday – we need time together – I simply can’t have enough time with you – and all I can do is count down the time…..

Falling asleep with you, waking with you, feeling your breath on my cheek – sharing with you is just perfect – and I want more.

I long to be with you – I long to make love to you – I love you my darling x.

I hope that you are having a nice time this afternoon with your friend and that you are not having a hard time. I wish though I was with you – I am really missing you. Lots of difficult discussions here – very circular – I am going to use your rephrasing of words later to try and get my views across.

I am going for a walk shortly to get some fresh air – I have said that I want time on my own away from the conversations – and that is understood. I want time with just you in my thoughts with your songs – I want to talk to you, I will sit on the stone bench and tell you how much you mean to me. So much has happened in the last few months – and perhaps things have progressed faster than you imagined but I can’t change how I feel about you. You constantly draw me to you and the closer I get the more I am drawn. As you said I want to be healthy, happy and with you….. and being with you makes me very happy indeed.

I love you my beautiful one – please be safe and take care x.

Hello – missing you – thinking about you and how kind and gentle you are to me. I am completely mesmerised by you. Sometimes when I sit and think about you I find it really hard to understand why you would want me but then I remember that you show me such tender love each and every day and then that overwhelms me. I don’t think that I will ever quite get it – but I do believe you, and I am so very happy indeed that you do want me.

You are the love of my life – everything to me. You are exquisite in every way – physically and emotionally you draw me to you. I want you, I am needy, I need you, I am selfish and jealous and as much as try to be “honourable” actually I can’t be – because I want you, only you, absolutely you, every day by my side – so selfish and jealous is what I am when it comes to you – and it just gets stronger every week….

I have to tell you – I will always care for you, I will always keep you safe, I will find the sunshine for “us” because now that is all that I can think of. Spending time with you is simply wonderful – you are definitely perfect for me – so all I want is to find more and more reasons to be with you for as long as possible each day. You make every moment of my life so very special – I am so very lucky to have found you and I am not going to let you go.

You are everything to me my darling – I love you my beautiful one, eternally so x.

Hello my beautiful one – not enough messages today – I am sorry – but not because I have not been thinking about you. I have – lots and lots and lots.

Have been doing some work and then some more difficult conversations here along the same line as yesterday. As before I am not committing beyond July and you and “us” are safe in my heart. I cannot imagine a life for me without you in it – I dream of the sunshine with you. But until then I still need you and absolutely want you.

Your voice this morning – always lovely to hear soothing my soul. Your smile brightens my day – I see it when I close my eyes. The gentle “thank you” – just perfect.

I would rather be alone than where I am now – but instead I have you and that is just heavenly. I want you my darling to share my life with – to desire, to love – you are my beautiful one x.

Hello my darling – hope you slept ok. I spent most of the night awake thinking of you – I love you so very much you take my breath away and I don’t know what to say – will go walking soon and I hope to speak to you some time – I love you x

Dreaming of you – missing you – sore triceps – the energiser bunny has a lot to answer for! I love you x

Hello lovely – finished exercise and showering – now sat on my own in the quiet writing to you.

I sit and imagine a time when we are together whenever and wherever we want to be – where we sit together holding hands, where we lie together entwined in each other’s arms, where we share everything and ourselves with each other. I imagine caring for you, keeping you safe, having fun with you, laughing with you, loving you each and every day – waking with you, falling asleep with you.

I am mindful of your heart – but my darling I have to tell you that for some time now I have been thinking that we need to find the sunshine and that I would then like to ask you to live with me side by side together – if you could bear it. To share my life every day with you would bring me such happiness.

You are the love of my life – I am enthralled by you, mesmerised and enchanted – and my darling I love you x.