This is a special message for a very special person – this is the 1,000th message I have sent you here. So I have gone back to the very first one (December 18 2016) to see what I said then:
My heart is overwhelmed by you; you consume my every thought and disrupt me so profoundly yet quieten the noise in my head like never before – I feel such peace with you. When I am with you the world just stops, yet of course time marches on and when, all too soon, we have to part I feel torn apart, broken and bereft. The sound of your voice on the phone, the sound of your footsteps on the stairs – these and more cascade waves of happiness through me. Your smile simply dissolves me.
I need you to be my ‘friend’ – I need you to feel wanted, cared for and adored. I need you to know that I am completely captivated by you.
I love you beautiful one.
Tomorrow I will see you for the first time after 11 days apart and I have missed you in a way that I had never anticipated – the day you left my heart was torn apart. That same heart is now more overwhelmed by you than ever before, in everything you do you bring me untold happiness and your smile continues to dissolve me. But we have shared so much more since then – emotions and experiences that have absolutely transformed my life and an intimate closeness, the words to adequately describe which are simply not known to me.
You are the most extraordinary soul – beautiful, kind, enticing, desirable – the epitome of delicate feminine sexuality with the most tender and loving heart.
Imperfect as I am, I love you with everything that is me – you are eternally my beautiful one x.