Hello beautiful one – finished most jobs – still a few to go. I miss you lots – it was lovely speaking with you this morning but every time I put the phone down I just want to call you back straight away. I love you so very much – I know that some things are hard at the moment without any control but I suspect that we just have to let them play out in their own time. I do know how I feel about you and I wish I could find a way to show you this more clearly. I know I let you down badly in Manchester and that I hurt you but I promise it will not happen again – and as I said earlier – there is nothing that could happen today that could take me away from you.

For my part – I did not enter into “us” lightly – I did it because for me it is very real, not a whim, not some transient episode – very very real. It has grown already to be so much more than I had anticipated and that simply makes it even more amazing than I had ever imagined it would be. I want you in my life – I cannot imagine now a life for me without you in it. You are my beautiful one – eternally so, and I will care for you and love you absolutely, I want to – it brings me great joy.

You are always in my thoughts – I love you my darling – you are everything to me x.