Got home about 30 mins ago – went to see Dad and had some jobs to do. No propositions here but instead the third degree on why isn’t my phone tracking on – but I have stuck to our discussion and it stays off. A somewhat brutal conversation – no shouting – and I am fine (really I am) and I am not caving in.
I don’t know when you might see this but I need to tell you – you are everything to me. I know that we have had slightly misunderstood conversations both yesterday and today about our time together – and I know that you will tell me off – but I am genuinely sorry if I hurt you in any way. I want you so very much and I will do better. I don’t ever want to see that look on your face again – that sad smile of yours – and to hear you say that you were disappointed in yourself, my heart is breaking….. I am yours in my head and my heart – I want to belong to you forever – intimate time with you is truly heavenly – all of it, every time, always. So you are indeed everything – more than I have ever known, yet absolutely all that I desire both emotionally and physically and so much more than I could ever wish for
I love you my darling – you are eternally my beautiful one x.