Hello – things are fine here – I hope that you are ok. More importantly I want you to know that you are everything to me. I really need you in my life my darling. This morning having spoken to you for hours I just had to call you back – I am sorry if that makes me needy – but I can’t help it. I could spend every minute of every day with you and that probably would still not be enough! You make me so very happy in ways that I have never known and find so very hard to describe.

I want to belong to you and only you. I want to fall asleep with you – to rest my hand on you and to love you. I want you to know that I will always care for you, that I will protect you, that I will always wait and wait and wait for as long as is needed to know that you are safe. You are so very precious to me.

I sit here thinking of you – wishing we were together, thinking of all of the time that we have shared and how magical it always is. And then I think of making love to you – and my heart dissolves in waves of love and deep seated affection and desire for you. I have never known such closeness and intimacy with anyone and it just takes my breath away. Every time I try to find the words to describe to you how you make feel – I don’t ever quite get it right. You are exquisite, extraordinary – and most important of all – you are the love of my life and I want you.

I still struggle with why you might want me – but I certainly do want you. I am sure that things here have not quite run their course yet but I promise to keep you and “us” safe – nothing is going to disrupt you and I because I love you more than I know how to explain. You are eternally my beautiful one x.

Missing you loads my beautiful one – you mean so very much to me. A little busy here making it difficult to send you messages just now but will send more later. No issues – just busy – but I still really really miss you. Please trust me today – I will make sure that you and “us” are safe – I really really want you.

I love you my darling x.

For as long as you want to me part of my life I want you to be part of it – that would bring me such happiness. Whatever transpires here, nothing will match the profound delight of time spent with you – like on thursday this week – a truly wonderful day. You enrich my life, day after day, you lift me up, you show me love and draw me to you. My thoughts, my heart – they are entwined with you, your smile, your laugh, your “thank you”s – all wrapped up with the inner part of me. The way you look at me when we make love, the way you make me feel both physically and emotionally – I have never known such a closeness to anyone – and I am overwhelmed by it, intense and engulfing waves of love for you.

I know that you feel vulnerable – you need not be. I promise to keep you safe in my heart – to protect “us”.

What I need to do going forward is to find the path to the sunshine – I need to find a place where I would no longer need to deny you, because day by day the thought of ever having to deny you becomes more and more painful to me. My love for you deepens daily – pretending to others that I don’t love you is ever harder and soon will be unmanageable – it is only a matter of time before my heart will not let me deny you.

You are my beautiful one, eternally so and I love you x.

Hello beautiful one – finished most jobs – still a few to go. I miss you lots – it was lovely speaking with you this morning but every time I put the phone down I just want to call you back straight away. I love you so very much – I know that some things are hard at the moment without any control but I suspect that we just have to let them play out in their own time. I do know how I feel about you and I wish I could find a way to show you this more clearly. I know I let you down badly in Manchester and that I hurt you but I promise it will not happen again – and as I said earlier – there is nothing that could happen today that could take me away from you.

For my part – I did not enter into “us” lightly – I did it because for me it is very real, not a whim, not some transient episode – very very real. It has grown already to be so much more than I had anticipated and that simply makes it even more amazing than I had ever imagined it would be. I want you in my life – I cannot imagine now a life for me without you in it. You are my beautiful one – eternally so, and I will care for you and love you absolutely, I want to – it brings me great joy.

You are always in my thoughts – I love you my darling – you are everything to me x.

You are the love of my life – you captivate me, you mesmerise me. Loving you is simple, pure contentment. Making love to you is heavenly, pure joy to the extreme. Having you in my life, for as long as you want me, is non-negotiable now. I wont you today, tomorrow, every day, day after day….

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – you are such a special person – I was thinking about last night’s discussion. And all the time you were asking about me your were struggling with your own stresses. I know that sometimes it is easier to distract yourself by focussing on something else but personal things in the back of your mind are always difficult. I know that you will always worry about me – just as I will always worry about you – but please take care of yourself too and let me help where I can – I really want to.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – wondering how you are this morning – a bit worried about you after the discussion yesterday – hopefully we can chat today. I love you x.

Good morning my darling – I hope that you slept better than last night without any bad dreams. I miss you so very much. It was really lovely to speak with you yesterday – the sound of your voice is really mesmerising and the gentle lilt of ‘thank you’ is so enchanting. I listen to your songs every night and they soothe me when we are apart – thank you for these.

If you have a chance to talk today please let me know – but otherwise I will be content to write to you waiting until I see that radiant smile tomorrow.

I love you my beautiful one x.