Hello – been thinking about you a lot today – and “us” – wondering what the future holds. Thinking about what you mean to me – what that means for me here. Thinking about you and your circumstances – thinking about steps on a path to the sunshine – thinking about so many things.

Reflecting on my dreams and my hopes for the future – wondering what yours are too. Thinking about how you are with me, how we are together. Thinking of the love we share, the happiness we share, the intimacy we share. Thinking of the most heavenly feeling of loving someone absolutely – intertwined in your arms, physically joined together – emotionally the most profound and intense emotions running through me, seeing the extraordinary tenderness that you show me every minute of every day.

Dreaming of you – always you, eternally you. Falling asleep with you in my heart, waking with you there. Wanting to fall asleep with you for real too – the most amazing memory of the beautiful feminine gentle curve of your back, waist and hips – that is engraved in my heart forever – you take my breath away. If the essence of you is not the definition of pure beauty then I do not know what is for you are definitely perfect to me.

Thinking about the pain of last week – watching your plane getting further and further away. Wave after wave of intense nausea ripping through me. I have never felt such a loss – truly extreme in every way. I cannot live with pain like that forever.

So much to think on – much to understand. But how my life has profoundly changed for the good with you in it – how much better do I feel with your love engulfing me – how much do we share of things that I had never imagined were even possible to share with another soul. And so I will not give you up. I will not be without you – I love you, you are everything. I need and want a path to the sunshine – to hold your hand by my side, sharing, caring, protecting and loving without reservation. You are eternally my beautiful one x

Hello – just going home – tired of working.

I love you my beautiful one. I love you because you are you, exactly and precisely you, most definitely you, and exquisitely you – you have captured my heart with that radiant smile x.

Hello – finished things here – going home soon – some more work to do but will do that a bit later.

I miss you so very much – you are so very important to me. I am really looking forward to having you back here – I love you x.

Hello beautiful one – in between things but about to go and do some more – I hope that you are sleeping well. I miss you terribly and am still counting down the time until monday. I hope that you feel less upset than last night when you wake – I really want you to know how much I love you, miss you and need you. I am longing to see your radiant smile, to hold you and to kiss you – spending time with you is pure contentment, beautiful, exciting and heavenly. We need that time to be “us” and I am so looking forward to it in the forthcoming weeks.

You make me feel whole again – without you I am diminished – you are everything and I love you so very much my darling x.

hi – off to do some work – I love you my beautiful one x.

Hi – in my office – I am a little sad this morning. I have looked forward to our messages every night / morning this week – they have been lovely. But today I think I messed up – I am so very sorry for upsetting you earlier. I did not mean to make you feel unsupported or let down or that I was trying to distance myself from you and your decisions. I know that that is how you felt – but it is not what I wanted you to feel in any way whatsoever – and I cannot apologise enough. You are having a hard enough time as it is without me making it worse.

I love you my darling – truly sorry for disappointing you x.

Hello – I am off to work soon – hope you slept well, your last night before coming home. Will write more later but please be safe travelling beautiful one. I love you x.

night #9 – listening to your songs quietly – dreaming of you – I love you x.