I know that you have gone to sleep my darling – but I have finished my shower. Glorious is passing now – natural fading – no fun without you – and I am sat here just slowly drying thinking of you. My heart is bursting with love for you – you are the one who makes me glorious – and that is because you are a very special person indeed. I adore you – and glorious is as much about that love as it is anything physical – although physical is amazing too. My darling beautiful one – I love you x.

Please help me to help you my beautiful one – I don’t know what else to do other than to constantly tell you “I love you” x

Just sitting down to do some work – lots of little jobs out of the way now.

I think that you are very forlorn today – I wish that that were not so. I am listening to your songs and I have re-read the emails that you have sent me with your poems to me about me. You take my breath away – each and every day when I think about you I can never really find the words to properly describe how I feel about you. I know that you feel vulnerable, but I will keep you safe in my heart – I have done so in the past, I have done so today and I will in the future – always, I promise.

You talked yesterday about me perhaps changing as part of me opening up to you so that I no longer wanted you / thought that you were not right for me. Deep down in me there is nothing to change – I am the person I am – the sum of my parts. And deep within me too, inextricably entwined with my inner me is an amazing and loving woman called “my beautiful one” – you. So whatever I do or don’t do – however it shows on my outside, inside you are there – always. Safe in my heart, protected at all times, and the soul that I want to walk forward with into the sunshine. Every day you light up my life with you smile, your breath on my cheek, your gasp and shudders when we are close – these are the air that I breathe – you are my everything and I love you above all else x.

I miss you terribly – thank you for my messages – all I can think of is how much I want to hold you close to me to keep you safe and to care for you. How much I love to kiss you and how much I would like to make love to you. How much I want you to know that I adore you my beautiful one x.

Every day I wake up and think about you – you are there in every thought whether awake or asleep. And as I wake and hear your voice in my head I feel that love that you show me each day. I want to look after you, to care for you, to make you feel loved and wanted. I want you to know that every moment of every day the person I think of and worry about is you. That in everything that I do or plan, my first thought is always “what would that mean for you?”.

I worry about you – you are quite fragile at times – that is not a bad thing, it is how you are. And sometimes I think that parts of the complexity that is “us” may perhaps be too much for you. Please do tell me how you feel though – I can’t promise to have a perfect answer but I do promise to listen and support you if I can and together we will get through things.

You are everything to me – I love you x.

Hello my beautiful one – home now but going to Dad’s quickly. I have been missing you loads and you are all I can junk about. I am worried about you my darling – I can feel your anguish in your messages. Please be ok – I really need you and want you in my life.

You make me feel so very happy in every way – I find these times when we are apart really hard and stressful and I know that you do too. I cannot tell you enough re how much you mean to me – my heart constantly yearns for you. If you feel able please send me a message even if only a short one to let me know how you are – I will understand if you would prefer not to send more although please know that you have never once upset me with your messages – they are always lovely simply because they are yours.

I love you me beautiful one – you make me complete – thank you x.

Good morning – missing you loads, these bank holidays are not great at all. I am listening to your songs and they are lovely. But only one more day until I see you and then all will be good again in the world – I love you my beautiful one x.

Hello – counting down the time until we are together my darling – I love you x.