I hope you are feeling better today – last night I felt really helpless re your distress – I found it very hard. Then there was all the fuss here – that too was hard. But today, I have you in my thoughts, your songs with me, and it is quiet here – and I am feeling tired but slowly better.

I find it almost impossible at times to explain to you what you mean to me. Sometimes when I write it feels like every sentence just makes things worse, every sentence just says one thing to you and something else to me – and I don’t understand – and for that I am very sorry and ask your forgiveness.

Being in love with you is amazing – more than I have ever known; being apart when you are distressed breaks my heart; such are the ups and downs of “us”. You are though definitely perfect – I will never let you go – I love you x.