Hello beautiful one – I hope you are ok. I missed you lots yesterday but at least there is only one day now until I see you again. I am so looking forward to our travel this week – I love you beautiful one x.

Missing you – wanting you – counting down the time until monday night – I love you my darling x.

Shower time shortly – a somewhat difficult last hour or so but no real unpleasantness at least – still as usual mostly it is my fault.

After shower I will be in my room lying there thinking of you – and I will be happy. I hope that I give you confidence in how I feel about you. I worry that some of the distress you feel at times is because you feel vulnerable because of me. I need to talk with you a little more to help me understand if there is more that I can do. I want to do everything I can to look after you and your heart.

You are so very precious and special to me – I must make sure that I never ever let you go. I love you my beautiful one x.

Bought more red wine – generated a bad response here – so it was tipped away (not by me). Then I went to buy some more and this time I kept it so that I could drink it – which I am. Otherwise things here have been ok for most of the day but I wonder if they will get a bit worse soon.

You make me smile – you make me happy – please be safe and please be happy.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Wishing we were together, I have a real urge to be sitting with you holding your hand. Wanting to feel you wrapped in my arms, just chatting.

Wishing we were going on holiday together – wanting us not to have oversight – wanting us to be in the sunshine so that every day I can be going home with you. I too don’t need much in a home – just you – and everything else after that is pretty much irrelevant.

In my heart I belong to you – and only to you – I just need to make it real – I love you my beautiful one x.

Hi – the more I think about last night and how distressed you were, the more my heart aches. I simply can’t bear to see you in distress – it just rips through me. I, we, need to talk a little more some time about a path to the sunshine and what it might mean – I don’t think that either of us can manage to carry on like this in the long term – it is at times disablingly painful, and plus, life should just not be like this – we should just be together and happy because we are together – nothing more, nothing less.

All I do, every hour of every day, day after day, is think about you – all I want is you – all I desire is you – and you are everything. You make me complete, content, aroused, excited, happy and so much more. I could not wish for more in my life, I never anticipated that “us” would be quite so amazing – and so I am very fortunate. I have found the love of my life – and you are she – delightfully definitely perfect in every way and I love you x.

Hello – finished rowing – wondering how you are.

Thinking about how much you mean to me and how I long to be with you – trying to understand a little more about the feelings I have for you. Have also been reading your emails and your messages – trying to understand you a little better. Thinking about what you tell me re how I should phrase things – trying to be better for you in every way that I can be.

Thinking about us being close and the magical feelings you bring to me; thinking about your absolute beauty and how wondrous you are – and wanting to learn more so that I don’t make you feel unwanted, or confused, or distressed, whether about emotional or physical things.

Just profoundly in love with you – growing deeper every day my beautiful one x.

Doing some rowing soon with your songs – morning activities with you when we are away mean I need a stronger lower back.

I can’t help but think of what a beautiful woman you are – your gentle curves, your soft skin – all so very delicate and feminine – absolutely enticing and so very very heavenly to behold.

You are everything I could imagine and then so much more in every way. Please be safe today and take care – enjoy yourself my darling – I love you x.