Hello – lots of emotions in my thoughts and my heart tonight. Missing you loads – sad about me and what I should be for you (but am not) – I think I let you down sometimes. I know that you will tell me that I don’t but to quote someone famous (i.e. you) “I think you might have done” and actually I’m pretty sure that I have – and for that I am sorry. Truly sorry and a little heart broken.

You are the love of my life and I adore you – my love for you grows deeper every day and I am constantly drawn to you – that is why I have to call so often – sorry can’t help it. But I also know that so much still needs to be addressed here and whilst I try to make that all happen all I do is allow my circumstances to hurt you and cause you pain almost daily – if not multiple times a day.

And so that cannot be allowed to continue – I have to resolve the various issues quicker and more clearly than I have done to date. I see that absolutely. Otherwise one day I will come looking for you and you will have wandered away because of too much pain in your heart – there is only so much that you can be expected to bear my darling – I understand that.

You enrich my life, you show me such tenderness, I love you my beautiful one x