Hello – coming to the end of the visit – one of your team as always has been really helpful. How are you beautiful one? Your webcam looks a bit miserable re the weather – hope you are ok.

I love you so very much indeed and am really missing you here today. I feel a bit worn out today – not just tired through lack of sleep but genuinely a bit worn down. All of the things at home are really wearing – and it is clear that the way forward is going to be fraught with more issues as I progress further.

But none of this makes me any less determined to do this – irrespective of you, I need to for me. But equally I cannot pretend that there isn’t you to consider. And you are everything – you constantly mesmerise me, you enchant me, you make me want you, you draw me to you with all of the love and care you show me. I cannot be without you, I do not want to be without you – I want us to plan for a future bit by bit, step by step – sharing our love together and caring for each other.

Your love engulfs me – I adore you – I love you my beautiful one x