Home now, had a shower and ate very quickly. Some very polite conversations and some semi-stalking (not shower related). I am downstairs but will be in my room soon. I am ok – truly – missing you terribly – but so very happy indeed to be deeply in love with a beautiful soul with the most desirable gentle curves. The love of my life – you, my beautiful one – I love you x.

Hello – haven’t gone home yet – sat in the car in a layby thinking about you. Missing you terribly and just not up to going home yet – I have been sat here for about an hour listening to your songs – cried for a bit but settled more recently. Will eventually go home of course but I miss you so very much that it is really hard.

Thoughts of you fill my head all of the time – I have your songs on in the car, really, really loud. The sound engulfs me and takes me away from here. It lifts me up into the clouds where all I can see is sunshine – and then I realise that that sunshine is your radiant smile illuminating my life, brightening every moment of my day, day after day. I look forward to lying in bed falling asleep – dreaming of you, imagining that we are together, entwined and wrapped in each other’s arms, longing to make love to you so that I can truly show you how much I care for you.

Sometimes at night I wake and find myself talking to you as I wake – and every time the words that I am speaking as I wake are “I love you beautiful one”. You are truly part of me now and my heart is yours – I love you x.

As much as I am very jealous, please do enjoy your dinner – I miss you so much. Be safe with your messages – I love you x.

I need to tell you that you are the love of my life – beautiful, lovely, delightful, kind, gentle, tender, desirable, sexy, so very loving and considerate towards me and so much more. Each and every day you show me different facets of your personality, you show me such love and kindness and it is always the most loving of experiences – you constantly overwhelm me in the most positive of ways, simply extraordinary.

I adore you – I long to hold you, my heart yearns for you – to sit with you, to talk with you, to care for you – and at night I look for you, my hand wants to rest on your waist gently loving you as we fall asleep together. Please be safe my darling – come back to me x.

Hello – sorry to be slow with messages but not because I have forgotten you beautiful one – far from it. But everyone keeps getting in my way every time I try to write you something! I really really miss you – that ache in my middle is still very much there. I so very much want to hold you, to kiss you, to caress your lovely soft skin and to tell you how I love you. I find it really hard when I can’t see you or talk to you.

You are everything to me my darling – I cannot tell you enough how very precious and special you are to me – I cannot and do not want to imagine my life without you in it. I love you my beautiful one – just counting down the time until you are back x.

Hello – wondering how you are – watching you on your journey. Missing you loads. Wading through work and emails – just been signed up to give a second talk at one of our June meetings but you might be able to help with this one – will explain when you are back.

Found my picture of you from last September – you look very beautiful and it reminded me of the fun time we spent chatting at dinner that night – very lovely indeed.

Off to some meetings but I need to let you know that I am thinking of you all the time – truly constantly (it makes concentrating on things a bit hard…..) – you are absolutely everything to me my beautiful one – I love you xxxxxxxxxx.

Hello sweetness – back in my office. Trying to think of how best to describe what I feel today without you here. It isn’t easy to do well in a written form.

Deep within me is a feeling of emptiness – a feeling of loss and loneliness. I have moments when I smile to myself – I think about our memories and the things we talk and laugh about and it is lovely. And in those moments I feel so very close to you. I listen to your songs and they too help me with memories and thoughts of you. I sit sometimes in the quiet with my eyes closed and my head is filled with thoughts of you. I wake in the night dreaming about you. Yet I constantly miss you, that empty hole at my core is always there – transiently dulled by all of our memories and the happiness that we share, but still always there. That is not to say that the memories aren’t truly wonderful and amazing because they are – very much so – but it does mean that the loss that I feel now is very real and very striking.

Truly, very different aspects of being absolutely and unconditionally in love with you, my beautiful one. That love is all-encompassing – it shapes and guides my every thought. In every decision that I make, my first thought is “what does that mean for us?”. I would not trade this love for anything – I will happily accept the loss that I feel today, this week, next week, because loving you is the most wonderful experience and provokes and invokes the most amazing and astonishingly delightful emotions in me. Caring for you, making you feel loved and wanted, being intimate with you – these are the things that are most important to me, they fulfil me and bring me joy in a way that I have never known before.

Thank you for being the definitely perfect you – thank you for loving me – and thank you for letting me into your life – I love you my beautiful one x.

Good morning – checking where you are now – hope that you slept ok. Is it nice there? I really hope that it is for you my beautiful one – I just want you to be happy.

I miss you loads – sad that I won’t see you this morning – but will sit instead and listen to your songs. I love you – please take care x.