You sound sad and / or lonely today – I will always try and message you – always. Sometimes I know that there are big gaps when I get snowed under but even then I am always thinking about you. I miss you so very much. I like writing messages to you even if you can’t reply. It helps me to let you know how I feel – you mean everything, I am beginning to get excited that you are coming back and am so looking forward to Saturday.

I read your messages over and over again sometimes so that I can better understand you – I want to share with you and part of that is communicating better with you – sometimes (perhaps even quite often) I don’t think that I am very good at that.

I want you to feel loved and wanted, to feel cared for. I love you my beautiful one x.

Watching you coming home – hurray! – I love you my beautiful one. So many intense emotions in my head at times this week for so many reasons but underneath it all is your love for me and my love for you and with those combined I feel safe however turbulent things are. Sometimes I need to find space – perhaps in the garden at 2am with the stars – but that is OK. You are coming home – coming back to me (I hope) and as promised I am here waiting for you – always.

I love you my darling – you are everything and I am not giving you up x. Be safe coming back x

Good morning beautiful one – another day travelling for you – I hope that the weather is good. Nothing exciting here – more work, usual things. But tomorrow you come back home and that will be lovely – and then Saturday I can see you I hope – and that will be amazing. I just long to hold you – every day my impatience grows, but soon my darling…..

Please take care today – please be safe – I love you so very much x

Woke with a start – dreaming about you and I on our first trip that day in the bar, simply being together – I miss you beautiful one – sweet dreams x

Trying really hard to think of the words to explain about me to you. So very tired and yet I cannot sleep.

Sometimes I cannot cope with you – not because you upset me in any way or because you hurt me but because you provoke in me intensity of emotions that I have never experienced or known before. Today has been unbearable – inside me is volcanic turmoil and pain. I want you, only you. I want my children to be safe too. But I have no idea what is happening in her head.

I recoil when she tried to touch me – I just want you – anything else is a betrayal.

And then I am so very jealous – I want time with you – together x

Please know that all I want in life is you – and I cannot bear to have to live through this all again – it is so very hard indeed. Please be ok my darling – I love you so very very much x

I feel a bit ‘unwell’ – not physically so but so very tired and muddled in my head – worn out I suppose.

You overwhelm me – please don’t get into trouble for me – I am not worth it my darling. You are enchanting, you are beautiful – you are my everything – I love you x

Hello – missing you – struggling inside to control how I feel at the moment, too many things I think. That struggle inside me makes it hard to write much today other than ‘I love you’ – so I need to apologise for this. Please don’t think that I don’t care or that I don’t want you because I most definitely do, but I am just trying to hold myself together before going home soon.

I love you absolutely, unconditionally, completely beautiful one – enjoy dinner, come home safely x.

Deeply in love with you – missing you loads. I love you – I promise to write more a bit later but just need you to know how very special you are to me x.