Hello beautiful one – dinner here not going well, as predicted – if you are asked to do something but then no one wants to listen to your view… but I did try. So I have hidden in the toilet in the usual fashion!

Should I feel bad that I don’t care about dinner? I did genuinely try, honestly, but it always ends like this. I used to care but no more – and if that makes me a bad and selfish person then so be it – that is what I am. But truly I don’t care.

I will go for a walk in a bit – need some air – need to talk with you. To tell you how my heart longs for you, how much I want to hold you, how much I want to see that beautiful smile, how much I want to fall asleep with you – I miss you so very much. I won’t be out late – I promise so please don’t fret – I will send a message when I am back to prove that I am not in a ditch!

Hours ticking by until monday – very slowly – I love you my darling beautiful one x.