I miss you so very much. I used to miss you a lot – in fact lots and lots and lots. But somehow since our trip everything is magnified, amplified and just so much more intense and stronger than before. I have eaten a bit now but for a while earlier this evening that gnawing ache in my middle caused by missing you was so profound that I just couldn’t bring myself to sit down and eat. That then got me into trouble and the dog was looking hopeful but in the end I managed to redeem the situation.

But fundamentally I don’t want to be here – although I do feel very selfish about things – but I can’t help it. I do though just want you – you make me whole – you calm the noise in my head. In all the time we were away – no noise, not one thing, nothing – and all because of you. You are definitely perfect, exquisite and mesmerising.

I need you more than you know. I have become very dependent upon you – and best of all I am so very content that that is so.

All I can think of is you – tomorrow will be our day.

I love you my beautiful one x.