Not enough messages today – my fault – but not because I didn’t want to.

My heart yearns for you in a way that I cannot describe. It aches so much at times until if I could I would rip it from my chest just to ease the pain. I can’t sit, stand, sleep… the only thing I can do is to walk and to talk to you. I tell you how I feel about you, how much I love you, what my hopes and dreams for us are, how magical it is to hold you, to kiss you, to make love to you. And then it eases for a while. Yet as soon as I see you it is gone – until we are apart again. Some days it is not so bad, some days it is very bad indeed – but it is always there when we are apart.

I wanted to come and find you this evening – I really hope that you are ok – or at least as you can be. But I do need you very much my beautiful one and I so want you to feel loved and wanted.

I will write more later – please look after yourself for me – you are everything to me.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.