I am yours – I just need to describe a path from now to where I want to be. Come what may, I have to sleep alone now unless next to you. My heart can no longer cope with anything else.

I listen to what you tell me about how much of my feelings I show to you – genuinely I anguish over this, I am sorry (please don’t tell me off!), the thought of causing you anguish, distress or uncertainty simply because I am not transparent enough tears me apart. It rips through me, like a fire, uncontrolled consuming, destroying and leaving a trail of pain that I struggle to control. I must get better, I need to change, I am trying – I promise.

I love you my beautiful one x.