I am very sorry that you have been having such a hard time recently – and I am truly truly sorry for those times when it has been me making you anguish. It is though so very good to hear you laugh and to hear you talking of the magical moments we have shared.

I am not leaving – you have nothing to apologise to me for – you are everything to me. As I said right at the beginning I need to learn about you so that I can be the very best person for you. In some ways I am better than before but by no means what I would hope and want to be for you. But trying…

I love you my beautiful one x.