Hello – back in my office, call with the US soon. I feel very flat – just like someone has taken part of me away – which in a way is exactly what has happened. The love of my life is far away and I miss her so very much. Whatever I do just temporarily dulls the pain, but it comes back each time with a vengeance.

I am quite simply lost without you – being quite so far away is so very painful. And whatever I used to feel on the weekends is like a minor scratch compared with this pain. I cannot ever recall feeling quite so bereft as I do today.

But… you ARE the love of my life and I have found you now. And that is good. And you are so many things to me – beautiful, kind, tender, gentle, funny, enticing, sexy, loving, caring, enchanting and so much more. And for as much as I feel this pain – it reminds me what a truly special and amazing person you are.

So as you said, we will survive, it won’t be easy, but we will – and for the simple reason that I love you, I want you and I want “us” – in the sunshine, you walking beside me, holding hands.

I love you my beautiful one x.