Hello beautiful one – finally sitting down for a bit so writing you a message – will be going to Dad’s soon to sort some food for him.

I miss you so very much – my heart yearns and yearns for you. You are constantly in my thoughts – really lovely thoughts of funny things, joyous things, loving things, sexy things, beautiful things – so many things – and all truly wonderful. And then of course some truly heavenly things when I notice that my triceps are sore and remember about lifting you up and down. And what a wonderful feeling that is.

I am really looking forward to next weekend and our time together. I really need time with you for “us” – so much to explore with you my darling.

Whatever transpires here each day – and it is a bit like a lucky dip, who knows what the next day’s question will be – I will be fine. I am so used to so much of this in one form or another that it just washes over me. I can’t pretend that some of it isn’t hurtful at times but truly that is pretty rare – usually I just get a bit fed up. But over the years I have learnt to do what you said, smile, carry stuff, pay etc.

You are exquisite my darling, definitely perfect – I long to be with you. I am mesmerised and enchanted by you – I never imagined that you would be quite the amazing and unique soul that you are. My days are always enriched by the love that you show me, and all of this together means that every day I feel a little overwhelmed in a really nice way by having you in my life. You have transformed my life – you are extraordinary. Time away from you reinforces how much you mean to me – I will not give you up.

You are my beautiful one and I love you x.