These extra days are really very difficult for me and then with all the turmoil yesterday it has been even harder than usual. I have felt very unsettled today really missing you and at times tearful and full of nausea. I cannot bear to be smothered with unreal kindness and the contrast with you is so very striking indeed. It just all reinforces to me how truly special and magical you are and how much you enrich my life. It is simply torturous to have to spend time apart and I am so very grateful for this next two weeks as they approach.

My heart constantly yearns for you when we are apart – you are the love of my life and I want you with me please – I love you x.