Lots of memories this time of year – yesterday Dad’s birthday, today 24 years since my grandmother died (Dad’s mother – she was the only grandparent I ever met), then tomorrow 24 years since I married #1 – and now she is gone too. Maybe life would have been different if she had wanted me? But actually I am pleased that she didn’t want me, nor #2 (as troublesome as it is) – my path in life has brought me to you and I am so very pleased that that is so.

Life is a collection of memories, decisions, paths – sometimes it is very complicated, sometimes much easier – for us, we are in the complicated bucket – yet part of me thinks that this is not so. So much depends on what we want for the future – because part of me thinks, to hell with everything else and everyone else – I will live with you anywhere, we will be happy and life will be simple – what more could I ask for?

I yearn for you – I desire you – at times I lust after you – you are the most extraordinary soul I have ever known – I am in awe of your beauty and my love for you knows no bounds – I love you my beautiful one x.