Thank you the time today to talk – I miss you so very much. There is so much for us to talk about going forward but I don’t have any clear answers in so many ways nor do I know exact timelines – but it was good to discuss just that little bit more today for the first time. We have to do this together step by step slowly looking after each other.

I love you more than I can explain – the words are so ‘thin’ at times in terms of conveying meaning – and certainly don’t convey the intensity of emotion that I feel for you – not even close. Today I feel that part of me is missing – lonely and sad, subdued, incomplete. And then hearing your voice – and you laughing is so uplifting – magical. And then of course the lilting “thank you” – and my heart melts.

I also need to apologise about the direct question I asked you – not because the sentiment of it was wrong, it did need to be asked, but because it came out very badly and clearly stressed you. I am not neutral, and I need to be sure that you are doing the right thing for you, because that has to be paramount.

We need more time together – I will try to make that happen – you enrich my life, you make me so very happy – I love you my beautiful one x.