I am really sorry that there have not been any messages but this is not because I have forgotten about you my beautiful one. Rather, everyone wants everything “now” and I am pulled in so many directions. And then on top of that I am being smothered with kindness which is so terribly claustrophobic – in the end I have just said “please leave me alone, let me be….” and just gone off and finished all of the things that they want.

And now I am a little tearful – now sat outside on the grass for 5 mins with my phone – and I am tearful because I do not want you to feel neglected or ignored. I do not want you to think that I have not been thinking about you – because I have and constantly so. All that is in head is you – and like my other message I just crave time with you.

Yesterday, today, beautiful – today was just amazing. That we could make love twice – I don’t know how you fixed me but that was very unexpected on my part, yet just simply loving in every possible way. And yet again, you overwhelm me in the most wonderful and tender way.

You are without a doubt the love of my life – the most extraordinary soul, the epitome of feminine beauty and my absolute eternal beautiful one x.