Hello my darling, the 7th night – I feel alone without you. I know that you are having a really difficult time – in the midst of that please don’t ever feel that you are anything other than so very very perfect for me. It is ok to feel sad, lonely and perhaps at times jealous. It is ok to be tearful. All of these emotions are about how much you love me. In the same way I feel the same about you – lonely, jealous, sad, tearful ….. and all of these emotions are about how much I love you. Las Vegas, the cruise, Happy Thursday – every time I become consumed by jealousy – and it is so very hard. As jealous as I am, as much as I hate every minute of it all – I never ever ever want you to have a bad time – rather I always want you to have a really really good time and to enjoy yourself – but I am still jealous…..

I want you – the definitely perfect you who fills my soul with happiness and joy – the beautiful you who cares for me like no other ever has nor ever will – I love you x