Please forgive my awkwardness and ineptness rather than believe that these are not the things that I want. In part it is the outpouring of emotion from me which in its desire to be heard tramples almost everything in its path; in part it is because I am still overawed by why you feel as you do and don’t really understand why you do what you do; and in part it is because it just takes a bit of getting used to.

But never, not once, has any of this been because I am unhappy or because somehow I have ended up in a place where I don’t want to be.

I am truly sorry (and frustrated at my ineptness) because what comes across to you is so very very far from the actual truth.

I love you, and know that I need to do more to show it.