I really want you to know that I am ok today – much better – and so very happy that we are “us”.

You are everything – the lyrical lilt of your voice brings life to me, your smile radiates love filling my life with happiness and peace.

I love you beautiful one x.

I miss you – I am sat here alone with loads of work (so chipping away…..) – but I just miss you so very much. So I am fed up to the extreme and have done very little because I am just sitting here with my eyes closed, thinking of you and that beautiful smile of yours.

I don’t want to stress you out – I am genuinely ok today. But yesterday I cried pretty much all the way home last night – couldn’t go to bed when I got home as I was so upset so sat outside in the dark for a bit just to get some air. I feel asleep in the end sat on the step outside the door and woke up about 1am. Came in (it was very cold) and then went to sleep accompanied by terrible dreams about you sending me away. I was so very scared.

Today – I am better – been for a walk and had a bit to eat. And I can’t thank you enough for your messages today. For me though, all there is is you.

I need you – you delight me, you enrich my life in so many ways that I can’t describe to you at all well. I am counting down minutes, hours etc until monday being eating away from the inside by that ache. Yet even though I am sad, when I close my eyes I remember the most beautiful woman I have ever known, the most kind and tender and soul, and someone who loves me so very much, engulfing me with wave after wave of all-encompassing love. And then from within me I feel overwhelming and intense love for you, deep joy and contentment, as well as that peace that you bring me, in my head and in my soul. And underpinning all of that is the the most profound need for you, deep in my heart driven by the love I feel and fuelling my dependence on you. The time we have shared whether here or abroad, when it is just us, alone, simply being “us” has been heavenly and amazing.

So I am better today – but everything that happened just reinforces to me my need for you – the thought of losing you made me absolutely insane – truly. For me, in every way you are everything – the most special and extraordinary person. You mesmerise me and I belong to you.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Hello beautiful one – I miss you very much. You mesmerise me and to me you are absolutely everything. My head and heart are full of you and my middle aches for you. Lots of things to do today – here and there. Will send more messages because somehow I need to be close to you even when we are apart.

I love you beautiful one x.

Out in the rain – sat here thinking of you – hearing your voice and seeing that smile.

I love you x.

Wondering how you are – did you sleep well – I adore you. Thank you for our time away even if a little bumpy – I want you so very much.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Woke with a start and crying – dreamt that you had sent me away. Settling down slowly – missing you. Deeply in love with you.

I love you x.

Hi home now – already missing you – thank you for your love and kindness – I am not sure that I deserve you.

With all of my being I do love you my beautiful one x.

Hello my beautiful one – I love you x.