I wish I could be stronger than I am to try and support you with the sadness that you feel as you are going away but I am not sure that I can. I will try but my heart is in turmoil. I love you my beautiful one x.

I am sat here trying to think of what to say to you. My job is to look after you and to care for you – to protect you, to keep you safe. I know how sad you are at having to go away. I am sad too. I try (perhaps badly) to reassure you about how I feel about you. I try (perhaps badly) to explain and describe how much you mean to me. I try (perhaps badly) to show you how much I love you. I want you to feel loved, wanted, desired. I want you to know that I am going to wait for you – forever.

Inside my heart is struggling – I love you totally, completely, absolutely – but that pain that I feel when we are apart, it is growing with the knowledge that you are leaving this week. Every day it gets worse – yet how can I be sad when you and I share moments like this morning? – truly magical. And how can I be the one who cares for and supports you – when inside I am falling apart? Does that not just make me a complete waste of space – I feel utterly useless and helpless.

You are everything to me – I need you – I want you – please please please always be yourself with me – whatever that may mean. “Us” only works if we share openly and honestly with each other – it is a true joy to be with you, and I love sharing with you (however bad at it I am).

You are the love of my life – I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Hello – thank you for your time today. I worry about you so very much – I want to care for you and look after you to keep you safe. You are always such a wonderful and peaceful person to be with – my heart is yours.

I love you my beautiful one x.

In everything that you do you always put me first – I love you so very much x.

Hi – thinking about you lots – missing you – I love you x.

A beautiful morning with a truly beautiful woman – you overwhelm me my darling. I love you x.

Hello beautiful one – so looking forward to seeing you this morning. I hope that you slept well. Just want to hold you close to me.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Slept a bit, now looking at the ceiling – thinking of you and your smile – missing you – I love you x.