Hello – lying here thinking of you, missing you. I so wish we were together right now, to fall asleep with you in my arms….

I love you x.

Hello beautiful one – I love you. Three simple words but all of me is totally bound up in them – from the bottom of my heart, all of me. And I miss you – another three words but exactly the same sentiment – all bound up with all of me. You tell me that I am the love of your life – and now, you are mine. In everything I do you are there, and for me there is nothing else – just you.

Imperfectly expressed, perhaps even ineptly so, but from everything that is me, and driven by my most innermost thoughts provoked by the most beautiful soul that I have ever known – I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Next week I really need time alone with you – just to be “us” without anyone looking over shoulders. I really don’t mind what we do at all – whenever we have had time together like that it has been fantastic. That Saturday afternoon – I don’t know what to say – you are so exquisitely beautiful in every way, so delightfully astonishingly feminine – and then you made me so uncontrolled…. The evening we went to dinner – again I am speechless, that evening was heavenly – being free to be with you, no one looking, no one bothering us. And then sat there looking at you across the table – radiating beauty and love – how am I supposed to do anything other than be completely engulfed by all-encompassing love for you. Even now thinking about that evening just overwhelms me. I am sat here with tears in my eyes because you are definitely perfect.

When “us” started I never imagined that it would be this – I never imagined that my love for you would grow and deepen to be as intense as it is now. And yet every day it grows further with no end in sight…. And what I know for sure is that the feelings that “us” have revealed in me are the very best feelings that I have ever known – I did not know that such experiences existed. You are extraordinary and responsible for all of this because it is you that has provoked all of this in me – simply astonishingly extraordinary.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

Finished rowing – sat outside for a bit in the dark – peaceful with my beautiful one in my head. Talking to you telling you about how much I feel for you and you have turned my life entirely upside down but so much for the better. Telling you how much I want to be the best person I can be for you. Telling you how much I want to learn from this week and show you more about how I feel – it shouldn’t just be what I write here that defines me – it needs to carry through into what you see in me when we are together. I want you to have confidence in me and the love that I have for you.

You are a delight – in every way you enrich my heart and my life – it is intense, overwhelming and joyous and heavenly.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Rowing time – need some space on my own with just you in my head. In trouble again for being preoccupied but can’t help it – and don’t care anyway. Plus now that I am rowing no one will care.

Thinking of your smile as always – wondering if you are ok. Thinking about just sitting with you talking and holding you close – just us without the rest of the world. Thinking about how you are the most wonderful woman I have ever known. Thinking about being close, reckless even….

That ache is there in my middle churning away at my insides telling me “you love this beautiful soul”. And I do, so very much indeed.

I love you x.

Hello – back at home now – still missing you all of the time. Can’t get you out of my thoughts – not that I want to though. I keep thinking about how kind you are to me and how much love you show me. And then I wonder if I show the same back to you? I love you so very much but I am not sure that it shows so well.

I still don’t quite understand how you settle my head so much – but you do. And so often now when I sit on my own all there is is you and it is so very peaceful. Your smile, your laugh, your voice – and I am just enthralled. You mesmerise me – I am totally yours to do with as you wish.

I sometimes struggle to control the intensity of what I feel for you. Sometimes it comes out all wrong then when I say things but only because it is all so intense and because you disrupt me so – but not because I don’t feel those things honestly nor because somehow I regret or feel worried about things. I do worry about you – but that is my job – and I want you to be safe – but I don’t worry about “us”. I want “us” to grow, I want to nurture “us”, I want to love you and to be loved – and whatever comes our way we will be “us” and “us” will prevail. To me you are extraordinary and the fact that you love me and want me makes me very lucky indeed. I will be more open with you – I am trying, and you have to help me.

This time next week we will be together – with others I know – but still together and that will be very good indeed.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Off to do some more work in a few minutes – but thank you for the emails. Even the faintest of contact with you helps to soothe the ache that I feel when I miss you. And I do miss you so very much beautiful one.

I love you x.

Sat here just thinking about you. Missing that beautiful smile that just dissolves and the lyrical lilt of your “hello”. Missing the smell of the side of your neck as I hold you close to me. Missing the gentle gasp as I caress your back. Just want to keep you safe with me and tell you that I love you.

Not long until we travel – checking daily – it is good to see the number counting down. I am so looking forward to time with you. Every moment I spend with you is magical, and just makes me realise what a wonderful and amazing person you are and how good you are for me. So getting to travel with you will be just fabulous.

I love you my beautiful one x.