Going out soon – don’t really want to. I was never any good at small talk anyway and it is nigh on impossible when you don’t want to be there. What I do want is to be walking in the sunshine when we are away with you. And then finding our own space to spend time together just exploring, talking, loving.

I hope that you have a lovely dinner this evening – you will be in my thoughts all of the time beautiful one.

I love you very much x.

All jobs done – more talking to you and I feel better for that. But I still miss you and want to hold you and kiss you. I want to tell you in person how much I love you so that you can see my face and know that this is real. I want to touch you – to draw patterns on your skin, to be gentle with you and to arouse you, and I want you to hold me and love me as you do. I want “us” because “us” is the most loving entity that I have ever known – and I want “us” to grow. Spending time with you this week has just reinforced to me how truly amazing you are in every possible way.

I love you x.

Just about to row 7km – need to get better with the stopping thing!

I love you x.

Chopping bits off trees – talking to the trees about you too. Beautiful, enchanting, captivating, disruptive, enticing, exciting, delightful, magical, heavenly, sexy, beguiling and so much more – you are my absolute companion. I am very very lucky indeed.

I love you x.

Doing errands – thinking about you. Wondering how you are – hope you are not sad today. Walking about talking to you – telling you how wonderful you are and what you mean to me. Reflecting on your distress last night – need to find a way to help you to understand how much you mean to me. Just because you have to give me back at times (and I find that very hard too) it does not mean that anything changes between us. It was really very good to be able to talk with you for a while last night – sorry to keep you up though. You sounded a bit brighter in the end and my heart felt much better when I heard that.

So often I don’t know what to say to you to explain how I feel and how much you mean. You mesmerise me, you make me uncontrolled, you make me feel emotions which are so intense in every way, and which I have never felt before. In everything that you are with me, you are extraordinary – you are my definitely perfect one.

I love you my beautiful one x.

Sorry to be a bit slow this morning – lots of jobs to do….

I have had the most fantastic 10 days or so spending time with you. Things going forward will be a bit ‘leaner’ but only time-wise. Nothing will dull the love that I feel for you. Nothing will take me away from you in my heart or my head or my soul. So whilst we may be physically apart we will still be “us”.

And after the lean spell will be our trip – and time spent with you in my arms at night. It will happen and we will be ok too.

You are my very best friend. You are the light that illuminates my life and the air that breathes life into my soul. Every day when I sit in the quiet and close my eyes all there is is you – no noise – just the very beautiful you.

I hope that you have a really great time today – I wish you were having that time with me but know that that cannot be so for now – but in the midst of all of that if you feel just a little bit sad, please remember that I belong to you and there is nothing and no one who can change that for you are the most extraordinary soul and I love you with everything that is me.

I love you my darling beautiful one x.

You are the most wonderful person – I adore you. I will miss you this weekend but I hope that you enjoy your trip today. Going for a walk soon – about 6.30 – will find a lesson and will report back later…

I love you my beautiful one x.

Missing you very badly today – dreaming about “stop” in many different ways!

I love you so very much x.